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[golden_hawke]

-=The PCD opens up to Hawke lounging on a pile of cushions, dangling a string and crystal from his own hand. He's twirling it, actually, letting the sun catch it and throw colored beams everywhere.=-

Once every twenty turns, there's a ceremony at the Mountain. Everyone participates, singing, dancing, bringing up a magical energy that infuses the Mountain with a protective magic. Afterwards, those who have scales shine with their own power for... days. Sometimes weeks.


-=He's still twirling the crystal, heedless of the colors that dance across his face and chest.=-



That time is coming soon. I might miss it, because I'm here. I do not consider this home. I want... I want to put some form of protection up where I live, but... I do not think the clinic is appropriate. There are too many people who come and go. Too many who might not understand.

...


I feel like I should be moving on. But... where should I go?

Comments

[golden_hawke]

I was thinking of that, but I do not feel right performing a home ceremony in the clinic.

I think I should find my own place to live.

[meteo-sniper.livejournal.com]

Do you have to move away for it? Can't you just perform it somewhere else?

[golden_hawke]

That is my problem. I feel like I should be moving. But I do not want to do so, either.

[meteo-sniper.livejournal.com]

The conflict between what one's wants and one should do.
I'd say that you rather should do what you want this time. But it's up to you in the end.

[golden_hawke]

It is hard to think like that, to do what I want.

-=slight smile=- After all, nearly everything I have done has been for the good of others.

[meteo-sniper.livejournal.com]

There are times, when you need to do what you want and need, you know? Being good and helpful for others is admirable and should be praised, but a tiny bit of egoism is necessary for health.

Not to mention that, when you do what you want, you become happier. And when you're happier people who care about you, are happy for you too.

[golden_hawke]

I am aware of this.


I am not certain if this is what I want to do.